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Sorry I've been absent this month. After having my dog put down, I needed some time to think and grieve. I thought that maybe it wouldn't hit me so hard, because I knew that she was very old, very sick (she had been living with dementia that got progressively worse), and that it was just time- her quality of life was no longer there. Yet, knowing all of that and being able to sort of "schedule" her euthanasia, and having my whole family be there when the time came... It didn't really help. It just made me wonder if I did everything I could for her, and I regretted the times I got frustrated with her. Dementia is probably one of the worst things I've had to deal with in a pet. She just wasn't herself anymore. Fetch was the only game she loved to play, but she'd just watch the ball roll. She'd always adored cats, but she grew to dislike and even growl at them. She loved the outdoors, hiking and adventure but she didn't like walks anymore. She was always a people loving dog, but she no longer liked affection. None of this was her fault, but it was heartbreaking to see. I can't imagine what it's like to see in a loved one.
My dad and family saw how devastated I was after we had to put her down. It was hard to come home to a house without a dog, when I had been used to it for the past decade. They encouraged me to look into rescuing another dog. I looked for a while, and honestly it just made me feel more sad. Then I came across a dog that really reminded me of my Toby- that same look in her eye. I have gone through the process to adopt her and she is now home with me. It was sort of rocky at first- it kind of made me feel more sad and anxious, but now I'm really happy I did it. In some ways, she's a lot like Toby, but in other ways she is completely different. I will post some photos of her soon.
Anyway, that is where I've been and I'm happy to be back.
Sorry I've been absent this month. After having my dog put down, I needed some time to think and grieve. I thought that maybe it wouldn't hit me so hard, because I knew that she was very old, very sick (she had been living with dementia that got progressively worse), and that it was just time- her quality of life was no longer there. Yet, knowing all of that and being able to sort of "schedule" her euthanasia, and having my whole family be there when the time came... It didn't really help. It just made me wonder if I did everything I could for her, and I regretted the times I got frustrated with her. Dementia is probably one of the worst things I've had to deal with in a pet. She just wasn't herself anymore. Fetch was the only game she loved to play, but she'd just watch the ball roll. She'd always adored cats, but she grew to dislike and even growl at them. She loved the outdoors, hiking and adventure but she didn't like walks anymore. She was always a people loving dog, but she no longer liked affection. None of this was her fault, but it was heartbreaking to see. I can't imagine what it's like to see in a loved one.
My dad and family saw how devastated I was after we had to put her down. It was hard to come home to a house without a dog, when I had been used to it for the past decade. They encouraged me to look into rescuing another dog. I looked for a while, and honestly it just made me feel more sad. Then I came across a dog that really reminded me of my Toby- that same look in her eye. I have gone through the process to adopt her and she is now home with me. It was sort of rocky at first- it kind of made me feel more sad and anxious, but now I'm really happy I did it. In some ways, she's a lot like Toby, but in other ways she is completely different. I will post some photos of her soon.
Anyway, that is where I've been and I'm happy to be back.
Update on Doctor + Results
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Warning of Poofiness~~
I might be a little inactive for the next couple of weeks~~ After my latest painting, I had to go out of town for Easter, now we are renovating my house. We have a big bin to get rid of everything from the garage, basement, laundry room and crawlspace that has been kicking around for years. Phew, it's a lot of work.
On top of that, I also have to get my bunny fixed! We are going for a consultation with a recommended rabbit vet (since rabbits are considered exotics) on Saturday. If all is well, we will book her to get spayed. Which is good, because I've noticed that she is a lot more... high maintenance lately, as her hormones rage. Suddenly
Art Timeline!
Hey everyone :) Last night I decided to compile a timeline of my art, from my first paintings to my most recent. I think I have made good progress. A lot of the earlier paintings aren't even posted here on DA, haha.
You can view the slideshow here:
Thanks for watching guys :) I really appreciate all of your comments!
Watch Me Paint!
I recorded some of my progress from my latest painting "La Luna"
You can watch it here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qIKj_7BFrQg&feature=youtu.be
Hope you guys enjoy :)
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I am so sorry to hear about your dog. I've always known that losing a pet is hard, but spending the summer volunteering at an animal hospital really showed me that it's a lot more than "Oh, it's sad." While I have never lost a dog before, I know that this must be very hard for you. I think it's great that you were able to adopt another dog so soon. I hope your new dog can lessen the pain, at least by just a little.